Realization

Hi hi hi hi hi , i'm finally back after being away for awhile.So, i've been busy with the mid-term exams which will affect my scholarship if i dont get average of 60% for each subject.This type of stress is like never ending!Why did i even sign up for January intake?I wonder sometimes.Eye bags are getting bad lately due to lack of sleep.Ok,i admit i made it this way for myself to study,what can i do?During midnight i only have the mood,the motivation and feel to study.If im to compare SPM and A-levels,seriously i dont give a shit about my results sometimes which is a major problem.I give up easily during the hard time nowadays.

Let's recap on what i did for the past few days.
-Met up with Su Jane and Yun Qiu at time square.Super tiring day,walk here and there,take LRT,squeeze with people and sweating like mad!Oh yeah,met a friend of Yun Qiu's,her name is Ash!I know right?You definitely gonna think of pokemon!She's a cool person i would say for a female.
-Played basketball once again in TARC.This is a very good experience to expose myself to more professional players when im in TARC,height is my problem now when playing with these people.They're super good!Hoping for more to come.
-Staying up late to revise and do tutorials were pains in the ass that the next day feeling so worn out and sleepy! I decided to stop sleeping during class when i first started college,but now its back again.Sometimes you just cant help it because there's a jigglypuff talking in front of the class and yeah,what can you do?hahaha.I did feel my body got weaker sometimes as i was too tired.
-Went back to SAB to have a look on the basketball competition the juniors having.I definitely missed those days.I found that only in SAB,you can find violence in the court but still best friends in the classroom.They might shout at each other while playing,hurting each other,bruises all over,but it never affect the friendship!Basketball is brotherhood! 

Now im pretty adapted to college,the environment, the people there most importantly.I have been a quiet person in college before this,now im just starting to behave a bit more lively i guess?When i have coped with a certain situation,only that time i will be myself in front of everyone.I just hope i wont embarrass myself sometimes.I find this guy in my college quite interesting.There is something similar that we had went through but so far,i think only him can understand that situation.College life is just about to get more interesting,with the April intake coming in real soon,lets hope it's gonna be fun.Currently in the mood to meet more people,i hope nothing will kill it like what happened before few years ago hahaha.In college,what type of people also can be found if you slowly observe one by one.There's always stress relieving section during the break time at the canteen.

I also have been hearing different kind of stories about my friends lately.Oh well,i just can say that life is lecture.
i)From pain,you realize ; from losing ,you learn to appreciate.There are some decisions have to be made before walking down the path in life.You do put commitment into certain stuffs but not over commitment.You might not regret now,but sooner or later you will realize.What's the point of trading long term happiness for some temporary happiness?

ii)Grab the chance while you can,no matter how hard it is going to be,at least you tried.Sorrow after sorrow,there are people who still can stand still and face the hardship without a frown from the face,but deep inside there are scars.You are a strong one,keep going,dont fall.Dont question yourself for what purpose on doing so much until now because one day it will be rewarded.

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There are things that really disgust me.
It is a pain to realize so late.
There are reasons why i still have them with me.
It is a piece of painful reminder.

Signing out,JH.