Timeout

People in their 20s should be very much energetic and passionate in everything, let it be love,education,life goals...etc etc.
So let's just focus on the love part for today.A short one,I'm feeling dead from this flu I'm having.
I noticed lately I've lost interested in girls,hold it right there you,I'm not turning into gay.
What I'm trying to say that,I couldn't grow feelings towards them,like "oh hi you're attractive,bye".
Should I say I've lost the power to love someone?Or to fall for someone?
Friends been crazy over girls and stuff in China,then there's me,not much feelings.
I felt tired, thinking about the process and initiatives needed to know someone new again and over again. When I'm talking about knowing someone it doesn't go by just knowing their names and shit,I'm looking for something more in-depth.
As I always tell some of my friends about I'm the type of guy a girl will last fall for.
I'm not lacking of confidence tho.

Question.Are people worth the wait?

I miss you like fuck for nothing.

Drizzle

The weather is changing over here and I'm loving it.
It's so chilly and windy,heck I still sweat. I'm hot that's why.Opps?
It rained for whole day and currently still.I can see mist everywhere! With the orange light from the road lamps piercing through the mist, just lovely. 
Really really regret bringing the wrong pair of shoes ,worse still white colourway with cloth and leather.
People been asking me which pair of shoes I'm bringing before I departed, I would bring all if I could.Just to make it feels like home.Lol
Winter is coming.Yes , brace yourselves , winter is coming. The white walkers...
Yeah, still am still on GoT fever, sorry about that folks.
So winter is coming and I don't really have any winter clothes which is a major problem.
I don't know how to shop in China seriously,I find everything is so scattered.
Excited?Oh of course I am.First winter of my life.
Coming for this exchange gave me so many firsts, I may be living in comfort back in Malaysia,but I can also live well on my own over here.Hah! Still, fuck the toilet sharing.
China National Holidays are coming but I don't feel like going anywhere seriously.
It's China you see, people mountain people sea everywhere,screw the crowd , I need serenity.
On the other hand, the urge to explore China is not there, I have a thing for Western countries.
So for now, let's hope my exchange to UK campus will be approved.
Shanghai,Beijing,Suzhou,Hangzhou and where else?I guess I'll leave the planning to WK again.

Classes are back in business but the summer heat is still burning inside, I need to cool down ASAP, can't choke my way through year 2.

Adios niggas.

Nature

Greetings from University of Nottingham China,NingBo Campus.
It took me quite a long time to connect to a VPN since you know freaking many sites are blocked here, including blogger,wtf right?
Let's not talk about the VPN shit, waste of brain essence.
I'm more to ranting this time cause I couldn't stand it.
Been here for few days, the environment,people,food (salty much), weather, transport and whatever it is are pretty satisfying,up to my expectations i would say.
As for the accomodation , living in a unit sharing toilet with 2 strangers is rather an unpleasant thing for me. So used to having your own clean,private toilet and now you have to share with people who don't share the same hygiene practice as you.God fuck it. OCD game strong.
People here wear shoes until their room doors.So yeah,the common area is quite dirty...but thank god not the bathroom,even they wear shoes to take a dump or pee.Worst still, there is no water hose.
I rarely see my roommates except for Wen Khai,like everyday since we still to the old Malaysian gang.One Mauritian and another one a Hongkee.
I'm living in an international student building,so basically people from around the world live here.
Yes,do expect a lot of western cultures going on here. They just had house party just now,and went for the real game after they ended the pre-game session in few rooms in the building. Something fresh and yeah,IDGAF lol. Asians are minority and it's hard to blend in unless you're really into their style,just I felt that,maybe I'm just not good at socialising,but yeah, most of them are much older,Masters students and came from other universities.
I'mma skip everything about the life here for now,let's get back to what I wanted to rant about.
Well, we had a supper with few China people just now(they are our exchange pals,more precisely,my friend's).
As usual, few of my friends just couldn't be normal when meeting with girls,any girl as they are pretty.(for them)All started to lose their mind and tried so hard to flirt,there's one even played dumb in front of them. Like hello? You flirt but flirt with class and style, not making yourself stupid,talking nonsense and bullshit,acting like a kid ,not knowing how to talk some simple sense.
Almost flipped the table watching my friends talking to the china girls. God knows how they think about us behind. Felt so embarrassed.I don't know how you can get so crazy about girls until you cant think properly,I'm starting to doubt am I normal.
They always have this exaggerated reaction towards girls and I'm just cool.
Pretty then pretty la? On some occasions , I'll exaggerate a little but not overboard please.
As if they never seen a girl before.
Till next time,adios.

The new beginning

So, I left Malaysia to China.
I'm typing this in Hong Kong airport after not sleeping for 24hours.
This is pretty weird and exciting, traveling to another country,having no where to settle down for half a day is pretty fucked up, I repeat,fucked up.
Fucked up in the sense that I'm enjoying it.
Scrap the having no-sleep-night out.
The whole family sent me off along with few friends along.
How did I feel?Nothing. Even I don't know why.Maybe the feels just haven't kick in.
We'll see about that in few days.
Alright,let's get back to one night in Hong Kong.
During the flight, my luck was pretty good? Had a cute petite english speaking girl from Malaysia sitting beside me. Oh, she was 21 years old and from SBS,KL people KL people! Cuteness overloaded when she asked me to guess her age,hah!
What's more interesting was she's having a credit transfer to UK all by herself. Solo trip over there.
It amazes me how people can learn how to survive through solitude just for studies.Wish her luck then.
Can't even think straight now, mentally and physically exhausted, having to travel around HK with a backpack weighing bricks, hand luggage and a camera bag up and down everywhere.
-Till next time-

Farewell

In 1 week time I'll be settling down in Ningbo China.
Talk about mixed feelings.
First time leaving home for so long, to be honest, I'm excited and at the same time scared.
Definitely will miss the food in Malaysia, more importantly Bah Kut Teh.
Ironic is that I'm not even born in Klang but yeah, I've fallen in love with the Bah Kut Teh there.
I know I'm leaving in such a hurry cause I changed my mind out of nowhere early August.
But, I'm really grateful to have WK and SY by my side that night.If they didn't spend hours trying to persuade me , I might be stranded in Malaysia for another year.
Let's be honest, the ultimate reason why I didn't want to go at first was because of a girl.
I like her a lot, a girl with personality.Nuff said.
What happened was short and she's yet another complicated one.
I don't want to disclose much details since I don't find it important anyway.
Decisions are hard to make.And then I told myself , I deserve a happier life,enough of struggling with love, stop wasting opportunities just to try my luck.
Not saying I'm giving up on her.
Just she's too far away and I couldn't reach her;I tried.
 

 -"If she continues to stay inside her comfort zone, waiting for that particular guy everyone got no fucking idea who he is, just let her be" -

I told myself again and again.I'm really tired of this kind of shit.
I'm too sleepy to talk about her,lets skip for now.

So, what else can be done before flying off?
Meeting up with people of course.
Some people I've not seen for months, some changed some remained.
Remember the time I did a lot of complaining about people not willing to find time for meetups or make efforts.
Now, it got a lot better,every session is precious as gold.
I love listening to their stories,all the rants,all the bullshits.
At some point, I hated myself for not being to mix well with people last time,lost so many opportunities! Wasted.

Till next time.I'm too sleepy and tired after a long ass day.
Adios.

Ya doin good gurl ;)