Aside from how stuffed my life is now due to activities,meetings and assignments,there's still time for me to catch a breathe and think about something.
I may seem to be absolutely fine from the outside claiming Im feeling good and enjoying life as it is,well I am,just 50% truth 50% lie?I really cant catch up with my mind whether I prefer to be in a relationship or just stay single and mingle around as I wish.Maybe I shouldnt be thinking of getting a partner until Im clear of what I actually want.Am I still traumatized by the past?Unlikely.Afraid of making the wrong choice?Probably.
There's this major problem I'm facing now is that I'm being too picky.First thing first,why am I even choosing?Insecurities?I believe every guy has his own standard of ideal partner,dont bullshit me saying you dont have one.Personally I have a very high requirement in which I did had found people that have all the ticks but you know,shits happen all the time.Saddening?Nah,this is part of life.The more I stick to the "requirements" the more frustrated I get.At times I find myself a bitch and yelling to myself in the head saying "You ownself arent any better,who are you to comment so much on people".I sucked,I know hahaha.
What does it feel like to be in love and having someone right beside you again?
Let's hope things will get better soon.
Adios,till next time (:
I miss you and you.
