You can never force me to do something which i have no intention in doing but yeah just induce me will do hahaha.
Life is getting much interesting as the days left for A-levels is decreasing gradually which means more and more things needed to be taken care of.It is the time like this I start to look at people around me and learn anything which is useful for me.Basically im focusing on self enrichment since i find myself have been lacking a lot of personal skills.Since last year i have been trying to step out of my comfort zone in everything.I learned to communicate with people more instead of just staying shy and timid all day long,yeah i am proud of that hah!However,i do still have the habit keeping quiet sometimes.I can deal with a few people when im talking but when in groups totally gone case,still trying to fix this bug of mine,well takes time!Now im just enjoying meeting new people,taking every chance i have without holding back.I kept telling myself that if i want to learn more and improve myself in life,i must meet more people and learn from them based on their characteristics and experiences.To be honest,I love to observe people's movement,attitude and talking,from there i analysis and have a thought of it by myself.Studying a person is actually very interesting,please dont get me wrong by the phrase "studying a person".Well thats what i always do when im sitting in the canteen,and of course i do look at girls too,which guy doesnt do that right?
Have you ever ask yourself what's the point of treating people good and is it worth to do so when people might just not appreciate it?I had gone through of lot of these kind of shits but my reaction most of the time was "Who the F cares?", as long as I enjoy doing that's enough.Yes,I have this weird habit to be happy by making others happy which means I dont care how,if i know you're sad or whatever,I will find a way to make you happy or at least feel better.*This doesnt apply everytime okay,dont misunderstood,please,please.*I purposely make this obvious.
Of course I wont do it for the sake of everyone ,Im not kind until that extent,Im still an evil meanie.
But,if you request for help,there's a fat chance i will say YES.Sometimes i also dont know why i will sacrifice myself for other people,just why?Hahaha.
This is my blog post so i will be very honest towards everyone,I dont care how are you going to judge me but this is me,you cant do anything.
-I dont treat everyone with the same level of kindness
If you are special enough,anything,just anything within my capabilities i will help you through it
-Sometimes i have intention in doing things
Yes im evil sometimes.No harm right?I also want some benefits okay ):
In conclusion,I just love helping people whenever i can/capable/have the time/in the mood/you're pretty or handsome *joking seriously*hahaha
I think life should not be just following the norms that you are used to and comfortable with,there are certain times you just have to break it.Life is too short to hold on on things that drags you down.You decide the happiness you want,things that you deserved.Everything has its own difficulties,it is just the matter of you daring enough or not to make a move.If you need assistance,look around for it.No matter how strong a person is,at one point he will fall too.Even if you fall,that's not the end because that's where you can start all over again,putting yourself as the top priority,no more unnecessary problems that make you sad,depressed or lose hope,just move forward and look for your own happiness.
That's what im doing for now,i guess?
Some people find me playful/not serious /pathetic,oh well i dont blame them cause they dont know me deep inside.You will never know what's behind that smile.Forgive me,everyone has a dark side in them alright (:
I cant stop being emotional sometimes,well probably most of the times?hahaha
Either i will just shut myself for whole day or at night........-people around me will know-
call me attention seeker or what,do as you please because thats how i let everything out.
I dont have the heart to keep everything inside i used to have.I wont want to risk my life hahaha.
*sorry for the crap*
Everything is just from my point of view,if you dont agree with it,feel free to correct me,much appreciated (:
That's all for now.
Brain out of juice.Till next time!
