It was just 4months ago,but it felt like forever.So,i wonder how are you?I could just talk to you anytime but i dont know what's holding me back.Maybe it's better?I dont know,i just dont know.As my dear friend told me,this is going to take a long time like a year or more?Im amazed by myself how i can just randomly reminisce things although im in the middle of work.There are a lot of things which i cant understand until now,not that i didnt want to accept it...just simply cant understand it,like there's no answers to it.
Constantly telling myself just freaking move on already,life is too short to hold on unnecessary stuff.Maybe it did work for awhile but eventually dead.Why is it so hard to just forget about it?Endless questions...endless.
Seriously im tired of all these shits,i need a new path to walk on,let go of every single thing.I didnt even know what fucking feeling i went through sometimes,i will just lie down somewhere or just stare over something and broke down.
The hole is so deep,i dont have the strength anymore to climb up.
Signing out.Goodnight.
